i’m starting to understand
my shortsightedness
in marketing and promotion of my work ...
when i was younger, it was a lot easier to ask
for consideration, favors, and help ...
at my age, i presume that people expect me to
have attained a certain stature and independence
in my field of expertise ...
false - the world, and my response to it,
has drastically changed since 2001 -
definitely an odyssey -
or as i said years earlier - odyssey and exile ...
when i used to think that i [more than others] -
deserved, or was entitled to benefits of my effort -
i never hesitated to ask ...
humility, pride, and neurosis changed all that ...
now i’ve realized that it’s only those who dare to ask
that earn consideration in the grand scheme of things ...
the other truth is;
i’m so preoccupied with appreciation;
living, researching, and developing art,
that marketing becomes an extraneous
and often toxic pursuit ...
nothing says ‘fact’ like black on white ...
word(s) on a page - signage - a mark -
evidence of some kind of intent or activity -
unless it’s written in blood ...
three wooden panels - seven coats of gesso -
layered surface markings - modeling paste -
inscriptions - black iridescent glaze -
sanded to white and gray - naphthol red letters -
iridescent copper - pure titanium white
with iridescent pearl - water - heat - gravity -
cadmium yellow capillaries ...
weathering crisis, meditation, prayer -
reading, studying, and paying attention ...
fact - i am - ami - fatima - iepov ...
