'nil desperandum', 1990 - from 'signals and cells'
low level anxiety this morning - maybe not enough sleep - maybe the pain of lymes' got to be a little much yesterday - worries about the future [health and well-being of family and friends] - or, might have too many things gestating to find the r.e.m.'s to 'still the world' ...
either way, i don't like the feeling - and in years gone by, i'd self-medicate the problem - these days, i just roll with it and try to learn something from how the mind works - it's a clever little organ - just when you think you've got something figured out, some synapse finds a crack to sneak through - all a matter of learning their patterns and predictability, determining the best outcome, and knowing, eventually things will 'normalize' - or not ...
i learn a lot from nature - and today, particularly field mice and insects - who share a striking resemblance to low-level anxiety ...
and as the day went by my mind seemed to permutate and pretzel most concerns into a pile of wasted time - most of which was reduced to things out of my control - but i guess every once in a while the brain has to defragment to organize priorities ...
obviously, finding time to rest - for health and processing is among them ...
scanned hundreds of images and worked on music - more cerebral than physical - today - but tomorrow is another day, and temps are good enough to paint outside - yes!
