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first thing i see - predawn red sky - sailors’ warning - canine kiss - unconditional love - service - hard to identify where in my body i don’t hurt - not in my head - must be the only thing i use without abuse - cold again - snow in the air - how i long for sunshine, warmth and ocean - santa monica, venice to start - invisibility - maybe not - longing and kerosine fumes - 544 main, holes in the roof, bats in my hair / lair, kero, anything for fame - south of spain, or france, or somewhere in florida, or maybe along the hudson thirty degrees warmer - chinks in armor - driven - fear, pride, self - appearances - what’s in the heart - change of - insider transitioning - life is what happens while you’re busy making other plans - beautiful day, again - time for time with tribal elders - gratitude for chance and change - quietude - whisper rhythms - dejohnette - simple abstractions building - no need for rhyme or reason - evidence of life - stolen moments - oliver nelson - another last tango in paris - brando - corporate branding - big industry - ink - rap, pop filtration - litigation - mind control - morons and plebes - geeks and dweebs - g.o.p. - memory upgrades for genetic research - one day - unable to reason - in decision - wrong direction - navigationally challenged - rhetorically persuasive - bochner, acconci, burden, the ilk - sublime, green tea, brushes, and silk - kyoto temples - templates and plans - rising sun - clean sheets centered - loaded pen - going beyond where we’ve been - hardwire circuitry - presumption and judgment - what others may think - seconds to years - dali’s persistence - my own resistance - tired of minding - tempering metal - tantrums to tantras - don’t like white bass players - ‘cept maybe peacock - white chocolate - barnett neuman, ellsworth kelly, or frank stella despite his unstraight lines, exotic birds, or nascar designs - give me a gehry when he’s out of his way or a gaudi or rufino, ivorra, calatrava - most anything not self conscious or taught - or fraught with prescription, restriction, and rules - give me a reason and tools - fools at the wheel - one armed half lobed drivers - cell phones, refreshments, and commitments - seethe, pray, or get out of their way - been a conscientious objector for thirty seven years - probably because i know the extent of my rage - against the machine, the banal, and stupidity - turning, signaled without implication - back to the jazz head and harmonies; technicals and recipes - how do i do what i do but do it larger - to fill an atrium with the same sort of freedom - without density - scale changes -