i heard someone say that privacy is a modern invention - and it probably is, given that survival once depended on close contact with communal living ...
but solitude was also more available in the past ...
today it’s hard to escape the encroachment of civilization or the social expectations of our relationship with it ...
the deeper i’m involved with my work, the more i understand what i need to achieve certain goals and ambitions - a constant state of flux, indeed ...
though i’ve made measurable advancements over the last decade, i’m noticing a lack of specificity regarding explanations of what i do; and the more specific the objectives become, the more i require clarification ...
as an example; nature, improvisation, and expressionism seem to be key components to the pursuit of painting i find aesthetically pleasing; but i’m beginning to see them more as generalities supported by categories of more precise interests ...
nature, for instance, not only includes the environmental conditions of the seasons accompanied by the sensory impact of weather, flora, and fauna - but is also relates to being engulfed by the abundance of something other than human interaction. Where i work, there’s a limited period when the amplitude of distractions are drowned by nature’s dominance; providing longer and more frequent periods of consistent energy, plus sustainable transcendence for suitable concentration - both seem to imply the need for more solitude or a more controlled environment ...
improvisation on the other hand, once represented an expressive freedom from traditional form and tone structures - and though it still does - today i’m less interested in the cacophony of ‘free’ expression than i am with a refined selection of notes occasionally augmented by flurries of apparent chaos or random elements ...
truth is, i’ve always been interested in music sounding the way the mind thinks; a blend of simultaneous events ...
for me, the notion of expressionism has evolved from the early tenants of Greenberg’s treatise and examples through art, literature, and music over the past century to a fundamental component of communication for modern culture ...
once again, it becomes the method by which the mind appropriates the realities of modernity - but it doesn’t represent the simultaneous interaction of data coherently ...
this is why i need to be more specific ...
